Thank you for sharing this Cassandra. I left a great corporate job three years ago, but still live in fear of the unknown to this day. Your post helps ease some of that.
I see a lot of images shown here are of Bali. I hope you went to other places in Indonesia as well.
The closest I feel to god/divine-being was when I visited Raja Ampat. It’s magical; you should go there.
Also places like Ambon and Komodo Islands. All here in Indonesia.
Have fun, and enjoy life.