I Thought It Was Love


I thought It was in love but nah
Bullshit’s been going down for so long I don’t even know.
I can’t even recognise us no more.
I thought It was in love but nah

Six months down the line I’m looking back at everything; from how it began to now and I know I should be in love by now. I adore you is what you would tell me to let me know I had your heart, till the day I had the guts to come out and say it. Say I love you.

But the man I said it to is certainly not you, he was kind, loving, selfless and considerate, you have brief moments where you mimic his persona and confuse me into thinking what we have is real.

I thought It was in love but nah
Bullshit’s been going down for so long I don’t even know.
I can’t even recognise us no more.
I thought It was in love but nah

They say a man’s value is in his words. Your words mean nothing. They are worth nothing.

The lies, half-truths and selfishness all used to manipulate and control.Why deny the relationship when clearly you were guiding her into falling for you? I allow you to lie to me but what is the point of arguing with a liar? Yet the more she falls for you the more my heart breaks for what we had.

I thought It was in love but nah
Bullshit’s been going down for so long I don’t even know.
I can’t even recognise us no more.
I thought It was in love but nah

Looking at how you publicly display your trysts and relationship with her while I was treated like a dirty secret. What does that make me? A fool? Perhaps but for that I thank you for your dishonesty. This indifference is slowly consuming the space that was filled with my love for you. I’m questioning if it was love to begin with, I’d like to believe it was but you got caught up in your own game, convince one that she is the love of your life and convince the other that evolving to lovers from friends was the natural progression. I hope you’ve had fun.

I thought It was in love but nah
Bullshit’s been going down for so long I don’t even know.
I can’t even recognise us no more.
I thought It was in love but nah

You want to make me promises and have me hold onto a dream of an “us”, I’m still waiting on what this “ loyalty and trust” has given me other than tears, disappointment and heartache.
This is all coming to a close I can’t pretend to be content when I am not. I can’t pretend that I am not falling out of love can’t pretend anymore. I don’t want this bastardised version of love. I want something true.

I thought I was in love 
Bullshit’s been going down for so long I don’t even know.
I can’t even recognise it anymore

I thought It was in love but nah.

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