I’m Black. I’m a Christian. I’m a Woman. But Am I Enough???
A lot came up today in discussing the disparities of the Black Christian, particularly in a diverse faith based space. It makes you wonder if some White Christian pastors are worried more about aesthetics than the heart of the hurting. How can I as a Black Woman transcend beyond my gift. You see in predominantly white Christian institutions, we’re good to enough to sing +possibly play but are we good enough for leadership roles, preaching/pastoring positions +boards that help with decision making??? In all honesty, it’s happening in all churches. While the Black Man is at the bottom of the totem pole in society, Black Women are far behind in these major roles in the church. Even though we are probably the reason why the Black church still exists! Personally I always wanted to be the voice for those who can not speak. Ironically I allowed the enemy to keep my voice in a choke hold because of how I sound, or how I look when I speak, or my Baltimore accent. How much longer will we keep focus on the image + not the substance. I am personally tired. We all have an -ism that needs to be torn down +our lack of empathy is causing us to lack humanity. I’ve suffered from enough being a loud, black, entrepreneurial Christian unmarried mother of 3. Imagine the scrutiny I go through when I enter the church!!! For the record, I don’t want your husbands, I don’t want your positions, I don’t want your platforms. I want equality in the church, where it should be. I want more of God, where it should be. I want more fellowship, where it should be. But in “church” my appearance is weaponized or sexualized before you discover the intentions of my heart.