Run to the subway. Greet the doors. There’s no room to fit. Another body. Squeeze. Squeeze. No need to hold the breath, no need to breathe. Every car is full, the train squeals down the track.

I am in another world every second I open and close my eyes. Sometimes I am swimming in the Dead Sea and sometimes I am a bushel of Brussels sprouts.

Sometimes I imagine people as birds, or lions, or cars. I think of them naked and boneless, fingers cracked.

I look on, imagine my daughter Lily picking flowers and handing them to me with…


On collecting the stories of mass shooting survivors

Illustration by Lizzy O’Donnell

On Thursday, May 10, 2018 I sent an email to Melinda, asking if she’d be interested in contributing her story to a book I was co-editing about survivors in the aftermath of school shootings. I wanted to learn more about her experience during the Umpqua Community College (UCC) shooting in Roseburg, Oregon, which left nine people dead on October 1, 2015. …

Loren Kleinman

Loren Kleinman is the co-editor of If I Don’t Make It, I Love You: Survivors In the Aftermath of School Shootings. More a https://www.ifidontmakeitthebook.com/

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