I try to see the beauty of the darkness and the storm, the eerie charm of the desire to destroy myself. A hurricane or a tornado are powerful and beautiful, not just destructive and deadly.
It is important to feel part of a tribe or group. It is probably deeply programmed into being human, it is in our genes more than it is in our culture. You are not alone, the world is full of people with depression, loneliness and pain. I am one of them, despite my two wonderful children, and the friends I seek and keep close. Tomorrow is another day.