When does a soul learn? Do we have to experience tests, trials, and tribulations in order for true understanding? Where is the narrow, invisible barrier between living&learning threw reflection; and living within the memories of self pity?

Hello my name is Stephen Aaron Cavin. I’m a “proud to be” southern man. I’m also a disappointment to myself. My weakness of heart, my meekness in character has lead me down a path of blind trust and of drug addiction. Worst of all, my arrogance I couldn’t see. It was in the shadow of the pride I felt for being humble. (Irony, here too has found me)… lessons I learned in life, such as “if you treat everyone you meet as ‘business’, soon you find yourself surrounded by employees and employers, all the while friends and family become absent.” or . “people are mistaken by the notion that ‘Respect' needs to be earned, people are wrong when they think ‘Respect’ have to be taken. Truly, ‘Respect’ can only be given… when you give a man respect, over time, he starts to see himself with respect. When he see hisself with respect, then he can live in a respectful way. And in this way, he is able to give the next man his respect”

far to many years have passed and still, I have no respect for myself. That is to say, until this passing week. My heart was moved to the point of prayer. And this time I felt relief from this dirty path of heartlessness of heart ache of negativity. Finally, after so many years, I can look in the mirror at myself. Even though I’m now faced with ending contact with a parent, cutting ties with people I once considered friends, my soul is at a place of peace. Much truer than before. . . (Detox-day1:thoughts: life begins) (*day 3, 4, 5 is going to be a bitch) .

Give love

Give peace

Give respect

Get happy