It’s All In Your Head..Embrace It
I think when I sleep.. Waiting for my brain to shut down and when it does it only returns to control my every thought. Even when I sleep. I can change the outcome of my dream, I can participate in them, I can enjoy them like they are real life. I can make decisions and also decide not to leave them when it is time to get up. Sometimes I can even go back to it after the alarm goes off and I hit snooze.
My mind I believe is the greatest gift I have outside of my heart. I have also thought often for them to be my greatest curse. When it comes to the mind it is so complex and I am intrigued to think that we don’t even use more than 10% of it. I like to think I can at times use more or at least be able to unlock something that can be… a gift and a curse.
My brain never shuts down. It is never quiet. I can go from creating the most beautiful thoughts in my head to second guessing everything I am doing then inspired and thinking about my next business pitch all in one fell swoop of 5 minutes. Maybe 10 because time always passes fast for me.
I love to talk out loud or type out my words because it’s a release of all that is said in my head all day long. It pauses the moments I jump through various thoughts and allows me to keep focused on one.
The thoughts can be so brilliant and original, so empowering and fearless, so provoking and willing… Other times it is so tormented. So visual, so lost, so reflective, so angry..so…disturbed.
The beautiful thing about the mind is, there is so much knowledge, so much intelligence, so much creativity, so much life stored for reference to teach you, to help you, and to guide you. It processes information better than any computer and with the right user the possibilities are endless.
See, you can control the mind, the mind cannot control you unless you let it. I have never popped a pill afraid to chemically alter my brain that I think is so beautiful and brilliant with a touch of reality that is needed to help me grow and become a better person.. If I pay attention. If I don’t pay attention, the thoughts could quite possibly destroy me.
We all experience things in life but, it is how we process them, take control, and open our minds to other and all possibilities. There are always options. We can always choose.
I have spent years learning and understanding and I am still on a journey that is not fully enlightened but, I can tell you I am on a path to my full potential of greatness.
It’s different when you are running from thoughts to keep busy so you can avoid them. When you decide to just embrace them, it’s empowering and peaceful…It’s like, let’s acknowledge the best of who I am and take on the demons of what’s inflicted because I am not going anywhere. What most fail to realize is your past lingers.. it is always there. In every decision, in every move, in every tick, in every thought. Your mind is conditioned. Whether your past was good or bad. It doesn’t matter. Subconsciously so much is there stored away. The smallest of moments and the biggest. The happiest and the most traumatic. All of them play a part. The question is, which ones, and why? Which ones are more prominent? Can you change that?
Yes! Change the conditions… Take control… This day and age, I feel like no one is ever willing to do the work or take that plunge because there are too many bandaids. What’s the purpose of the bandaid if that wound gets infected or that gash becomes bigger?
PTSD, depression, anxiety… it is so common with many people suffering behind closed doors. With many people that either don’t understand that is what they are experiencing or don’t have the appropriate outlet. Because that is what you need… an outlet. Not a bandaid.
And so I write… releasing the thoughts in my mind that were often controlled even when I dream.. I go through my day and I talk to myself. I create whenever possible. I live out loud but, I reflect in silence and I am aware of my actions. I don’t try to make sense of others I only make sense of my own… I only focus on me. Because in our society we are often faced with looking at others and seeing what others do all the time over and over on your news feed or your phone, tv, magazines…
A society where we can always compare ourselves to others.. you forget to realize..Your best comparison is you…
YOU…. Who were you a day ago, a month ago, a year ago? Have you grown or presented a better version of you. If not, you will forever spin in a circle, watching others live out their dreams, envious, depressed, filled with anxiety, and forever broken. All the while you fail to realize most of those people are broken too.. Showing a false reality.
You have the capability to choose. Choose the gift…embrace the curse. Be free while at the same time, taking control…
I think when I sleep… I reflect on my days…I talk to myself.. I write, I create.. I’m embracing the journey of good and taking the lessons from bad.. I am still on the path of enlightening but, I walk freely amongst the gift and the curse….
