In the Sea.
I had love for you as big as the sea,
The sea is grey and rough,
Sprinkled with hurt and loneliness;
But disguised as fun and light.
Two boats trying to navigate this sea,
With only a thin rope to keep us together.
It became too painful to bear,
You dipped me in crazy,
I breathed in the ‘what ifs’
Hanging on to hope for what -I wasn’t even sure.
It become deep and heavy.
I let the rope go,
Then yearning for you again,
I jumped back into the grey to retrieve it.
You did the same;
Only you didn’t tell me you’d dropped our rope.
Your silence stung me like giant yellow wasp,
Right in my stomach and throat.
I looked up to the sea trying to make sense of it,
I looked in the waves for you.
Then you pulled the rope again and came back.
The sea became freezing and too choppy to breathe in.
I can’t breathe,
It’s sucked me up and left me confused,
And good memories tinted,
With damp days of waiting and hoping.
I need to let the rope go,
And I watched your boat get smaller and smaller,
Until you are a black dot on the horizon,
And can’t see your face anymore.
I hope I never see it again.