I just created a list of everything I’m not acknowledging as wrong, another (much deeper) list of everything that “can’t go on” in my life right now, then another list where I just allowed honesty to flow and admitted why certain aspects of my life are going without change.

I’d rather run a blog than write a book.

I’d rather design for other people’s blogs than my own.

I don’t want to schedule my entire day, every day around when that “certain someone who doesn’t want to make me a special someone” calls my phone to talk.

I’m almost trembling from the amount of vulnerability I’m feeling right now.

Life isn’t going the way I want it to. Not 100%.

I want to change that.