Dear Reader,

Now I found myself in this noisy library in the university, I appreciate how tranquil my days have been at home. It is hard to appreciate things when you are born with it or when you take it for granted. Real gratitudes arise once you understand how difficult it can be without the thing.

Sometimes, I express the nostalgic feelings in my blog, readers may not be able to resonate with me if you are never away from home for long. My whole understanding of this world is based on my 20 years of primal knowledge in that small city. I have this longing to be home, to be with the people I love, to be in the place I know by heart. Without those, I struggled with my personal identity and get moody sometimes. You see, I have to abandon my understanding, and reconstruct a new one. People don’t do things they way we did it at home. We have a quiet library, no one laughs all of a sudden.

Homesickness kills me some time. What can I do in this strange new world that all looks so unfamiliar to me? No one welcomed me in this new country, even no one noticed, probably only the police officer. The last couple of days, I kept working, I don’t allow myself to stop and think. That film <Brooklyn>, I can only see they under-present that pain of homesickness. But I have to endure it somehow, life has its good and bad. If we have no other way to go, accept and appreciate it. I believe in fate, I surrender in fate. Only by then, I can start to live.

You know what, I always admire those quiet housewives. Their works are by no means easy especially when they have a high degree education. If I were them, I may keep torturing myself, but if you look at some of those marvellous housewives, they do not even make a sound when they are carrying on the most tedious work, they don’t complain the hardship of life, simply endure them with solitude. But never underestimate them, out of blue, they may be an entrepreneur or a best-seller in NY times, that their husband never knew.

To conclude, accept your situation, don’t argue with it, and do whatever you can do that is under your control.

Yours,

Lu

(The photo is my neighbor’s house on long island)