I deserve more than just any guy.

I’m going to clear something up, to all those people that always ask me stuff like “Why are you still single?”, “Why don’t you like him?”, “Haven’t you been single long enough?”, “Don’t you feel like you’re too old to be single?”, “That train is leaving” *add in here the rolling eyes emoji*.
I’m going to explain to all of you why I think being single is not the equivalent for “being sad”, why I don’t settle for the first man that crosses my path and why being single is a personal decision. If there’s something I’ve learned about love through my short 23 years of age, it’s that it’s unpredictable, unexpected and many times it can change your life for better or for worse; given diverse various situations in my life, I consider it’s made me cold and sometimes indifferent towards certain things. This is just a defense mechanism I use but it’s also a test; the reason I’m still single is not that I don’t meet guys, I don’t sit down in my room and cry because I don’t have a boyfriend (something I think a lot of people believe I do). Why not? Because I’m not an incomplete person, I don’t need to find someone that’s going to complete me, I don’t need my “other half”, I don’t need someone who’s going to be there a couple of months and then leave with someone else after I’ve given him everything I am. But hey, I think being in a relationship is a very beautiful thing, don’t get me wrong, probably lots of you are already in a relationship and are happy; I congratulate you really, I think finding someone you feel comfortable with is something special, unusual and you should appreciate it.
But I don’t want someone that just wants to take my clothes off, I don’t want someone who wants to use me for a couple of months and later throw me out, I don’t want someone who only talks about trivial stuff, I don’t want just any guy. I want someone who wants to undress my thoughts, feelings and experiences, someone that wants to know every part of me including the darkest and deepest parts of my soul, someone that shows me all his scars without a doubt, someone who wants to lay under the stars with me all night and talk about life, society, God and the reasons we exist. I’m single because I want to be, not because I’m crazy or weird or controlling; I’m single because I just want to be, at least until someone comes around and changes my opinion about it. My friends always tell me that I’m too picky when it comes to guys, they tell me that I will never find someone if I keep on being so selective; well, yeah, I’m not easily impressed, I tend to be cold and apathetic hoping someone will try hard to understand why I’m like this and did deep in search for an answer (this is the step where everyone fails). I want someone who wants try hard to understand me and will break that wall I sometimes put up around myself, someone who will not give up at the first sight of trouble and will understand when I need time for myself.
I don’t consider myself “alone” or “sad”, on the contrary, I’ve learned to love myself so much that I know when the right person comes along I’m going to be able to love them fully. I’m also not on the lookout for anything right now because based on my beliefs, I know God has someone special picked out especially for me and it’s going to be everything I ever wanted. I (and you) don’t deserve just any guy, I believe that and that’s the reason I’m so “picky”; so, to whoever it may concern, stop feeling sorry for those around you that have willingly decided to stay single, maybe they´re like me and they are happy just waiting for that special person who will change everything. Why would I want to lose my time with someone that is not worth it? And if you’re one of the lucky ones who found that person already don’t let him/her go, there’s things in life that only come around once.
But hey, that’s just my humble opinion…you’ll read me later.
