Man…if I had read this two months ago, or even two weeks ago, I’d probably be shocked or puzzled by your description of being in “the hole.” I just climbed out of a hole of my own. I think MIT is a particularly tough place to be (or become) depressed — it only takes a few days of not getting out of bed to put you far enough behind that getting out of bed and facing reality seems insurmountable.
Thank you for writing this. I don’t think I can really put into words how grateful I am for the recent burst of writing, sharing, and discussion I’ve seen at MIT re: mental health. It makes it so much easier for me to mention what I’m struggling with, without being ashamed or afraid of judgment. And it’s a huge comfort to know I’m not the only one who’s been through this.