Happy Kid

I have all the love in the world. The support. The people. The career. And I still find myself empty sometimes.
There’s so much internal clarity, yet external chaos. I’ve been preconditioned to be a certain me. Did I do it to myself? Am I addicted to being in pain? Is someone else to blame?
I grew up a happy kid —I had an abundance of opportunity. Love given to me in so many ways, but ways that I didn’t receive. Emotionally broken. Not knowing how to communicate what I saw, or being told that I’m wrong for seeing it a certain way. I still struggle with this mind to mouth connection to this day…but maybe it’s a gift?
There’s something peaceful about knowing that you’re misunderstood. At least I know who I am and what I value. As I grow older, I now see the world in my view, not anyone else’s. I see the world based on my experience, my interpretation, and my knowledge and wisdom of life.
Remember growing up and your family tells you that, for example, Kanye West has “lost his marbles”? He nuts. He’s crazy. He’s psychotic. He is living in his own world. And then you hear him talk one day and it all makes perfect sense? Funny how that works.
There is no craz y— that’s all individual perception, fear and lack of self-love. I dont feel the need to judge someone because they are who they are for a reason, and I know what it’s like to not feel accepted. That’s all we want as humans — a purpose and some love.
People who act themselves are “crazy” in the eyes of people who don’t have the balls to be themselves.
So, theres a simple way that I live my true life, and it goes something like this:
1. I only take advice from someone who has what I want. I don’t place value on the opinions of people who don’t. Period.
2. Acceptance and kindness wins every time.
3. Serve others.
4. Live from the heart, not the head.
5. I surround myself with likeminded people so I don’t feel alone. No one is alone — we just need to find the right people.