The doctor is right. The times when I’m really in danger aren’t marked by a trail of tears or fits of rage, they’re marked with excessive happiness and overexertion. It’s eating a new food in a new country and thinking there’s no way life could possibly be better. It’s hugging someone you deeply care for, and knowing that nothing could feel as great, that they could be gone in a heartbeat. Or, experiencing an amazing success and knowing there’s no way to top it, there’s misery just around the corner. That’s when the rollercoaster begins its descent, that’s when the plan begins to feel like an optio…