
…e of Who can care less?. I lose that game every time, and playing it feels inauthentic to who I am. I want and need to be ab…e of Who can care less?. I lose that game every time, and playing it feels inauthentic to who I am. I want and need to be able to express my whole self freely to someone I consider a partner.
But none of that bullshit is real, and even if it is, it doesn’t matter. My feelings are valid, and voicing my desire to someone I’m dating is a good filter. If he is less interested in me because of my desire for him and my honesty about it, then I was never going to be truly known and loved by him anyway. After all, I’m not interested in a relationship that rests on a game of Who can care less?. I lose …
hy of what I want, so how can I possibly speak it out loud? P…ike with Carson that night in college, my feelings catch in my throat, and I can’t speak my desire. That primordial fear comes creeping back, that I am not worthy of what I want, so how can I possibly speak it out loud? Plus, there’s my patriarchal conditioning monologuing in my head: