Our autism journey
Sometimes letting go is all you can do. I worry a lot. I cry a lot. And I enjoy a little. Because I’m always on this side of the edge. The edge of emotions, the edge of security, insecurity, reason, the edge of helplessness. My baby needs me twenty four/seven. The pure helplessness becomes overwhelming. There is nothing I can do to change the fact that he is afraid of nothing and he is a sensory seeker, except give it time and go over the same instructions with him. He processes things in his time, in his way. Don’t we all. Owen has come so far. He is communicating with me in ways I didn’t know where even possible. He lights up my world and he shows me love I never dreamed of. He also scares the daylights out of me with his no fear attitude, but I’m learning to breathe. He is my miracle. He is my world. There is nothing that prepared me for autism, but I was more than ready for the tiny little baby they placed in my arms. I waited for him all my life. Today I grow, today I love, and tomorrow I keep letting go. You are stronger than you ever imagined. Make today matter. Smiles to all and donut daze!