Dear Stephanie,
Thank you for sharing your story. I’m much older than you and see myself in your words. Depression really is terrible and trolls who have never experienced it are jerks for offering up their unwarranted opinions.
The French have a saying that says it well… “What makes us discontented with our condition is the absurdly exaggerated idea we have of the happiness of others.” Most of us have emotional baggage. (Your early history makes mine look like a carnival.) You are intelligent, gorgeous, sensitive — a man would be lucky to be with you, of course you’re lovable. As someone who has experienced all the emotional turmoil you’re going through, what I’ve learned is to try and live in the moment. When you get older you’ll find out that life goes by in a heartbeat and it’s not worth trying to make sense of things that were beyond your control. Depression is soul crushing but you’re not alone.
Get out there… there are men that need to meet you!