Reflection

  1. What gifts can I offer?

The biggest gift to offer is obviously my heart. As cliche as that may sound, it’s very true. All I ever wanted was to love, and more importantly, be loved. My heart is very warm, and it has been hurt a lot, so the hurt pushes me to love harder. Some people end up not really having a heart and showing a cold side, but the thing about me is, I will still care and love for someone no matter how wrong they did me. It’s like that aspect of me is a blessing and a curse.

I can also offer the gift of compassion. I will always show my respect and sympathy towards others, no matter the situation. I am always there for people, no matter if I’ve said (negative) things about them, vice versa.

I can offer my family. Oh my, my family is the second biggest thing I probably should have written before compassion, but my mind is all over the place at the moment. My family is so accepting and loving it’s unbelievable. We never judge people for who they are or what they’ve done. Even some of my friends who have done me wrong, my family still ask if I know how they’re doing and if they’re doing better than how they used to be. When my friends come over — a lot, to the point where my family remembers your names etc., you’ve basically become a part of the family. Sometimes it gets to the point where they message you to come over without my own knowledge.

2. When do you feel most alive?

I feel most alive in my dreams. It might be weird to say, but I just feel like I wake up sometimes thinking whatever I dreamed about, literally just happened. Sleep paralysis is the time I feel more alive than ever. Sometimes I’ll have a dream in a dream and they both end up being sleep paralysis, which is the worst thing ever, I feel like I’m just going to die. My happy dreams, some which I remember, and most I have forgotten, I feel as if my dreams take me to a place in which helps me deal with reality. I may not dream every night, but when I do, I feel as if it’s more realistic than reality itself.