The imperfect Christian living for a selfless God

As a young, vibrant, bold, Godly woman, growing up and finding my place in this mediocre world is not easy. From time to time I have found myself wondering what it’s like to live a life that’s not centered around Christ. Then I realized I have lived that life before, and it is not a life that I would be interested in enduring a second time. As an imperfect Christian, I think it is only fair for me to say how many people I see around me lost, dazed, and confused. If you are not living your life for Christ now, it is never too late to start.

One of the most amazing things about our God, in my opinion, is that God chooses to love us, no matter how much we choose to love him. He will never turn his back on you, or leave you to walk through trials and tribulations alone. Reason number 1, our God is forever selfless.

I have learned from personal experiences, materialistic things are so temporary. Whether they be things that we chase after for ourselves, or whether it may be a relationship that we are in that is based on materialistic things. Our God is not temporary, and he does not want our love for him to be temporary. God’s love for us is everlasting, and he promises us that at the end of our journeys, we will have an eternal life and home within his kingdom, if we acknowledge him and go about his will. Reason number two, our God is forever selfless. Instead of being caught up in temporary worldly things, I strive daily to focus on the love my God has for me, and extend that love to people in my life.

Throughout my new journey, I have realized that going to church, reading and highlighting verses within my tattered bible, and listening to the gospel wasn’t enough to satisfy me. I have always thought of myself as a Christian, and a church goer, but I realized unfortunately I became satisfied with being just that. When I look back on my life I don’t want to see myself as someone who just settled, and was okay with being mediocre, for that is not who God intended me to be, I am positive.

As this is true for myself, as many of my piers, my life is not all it is cracked up to be on social media. I endeavor many hardships and shortcomings daily, and red lipstick and turquoise unfortunately can’t help them all. I think it is so crazy that someone as selfless as my God died for someone as undeserving as me to relinquish my sins, and allow a better life for his followers. That, to me, is everlasting love, and the type of love I long to endure until my days end. My God died to forgive my sins, asking for nothing in return, but a relationship with him. Reason number three, my God is forever selfless. I strive daily to live for God, trusting him, loving him~ being Christ like.

There is nothing more important to me than allowing God’s light to shine through me, and his word to appear as written across my face. There are so many moments within my day, where I should be questioning “why me” or saying “not now, I can’t handle that right now”. Instead of staying down when I have effortlessly fallen from grace, which happens often, I rise up, and I will rise up one hundred times, with a smile on my face. I find it amazing the feeling that overcomes me when I know that God has me, and he will continue to have me, no matter my shortcomings. Reason number four, my God is forever selfless.

The most often question I am asked is “How do you do it?” I often reply with “How do I do what?” and the response is almost always “Walk around with a smile on your face, never meet a stranger, and always be okay with things.” ~ well friends, I do it with GOD. I trust wholeheartedly that God’s got me, no matter the situation. I have never once thought that I was perfect, but knowing your worth is essential. If I am worthy enough to be loved by the one true king, then I am worthy enough to spread his word to essentially unworthy people, such as myself.

Living a Christ like life is not easy. There will be people with positive feedback, negative feedback, and honestly downright cruel feedback.. That is when the time comes to throw vulnerability out the window. At the end of the day, what is standing between you and what you want, is choice. If you want to go win that rodeo this weekend, it is your choice to get in the practice pen and prepare for your winnings. Just like if you want to get closer to God, and allow him to step into your life and guide your footsteps, it is your choice to allow him in, and your choice to begin living a Christ like life.

I don’t come to you writing this to persuade you that my life is perfect, that I am perfect. I write this, highlighting my shortcomings and my flaws, rejoicing in the everlasting love that my selfless savior shines upon someone so flawed and undeserving as myself. If I am worthy of his love, so are you. It is never too late to begin asking questions, and bettering your relationship with God. I pray that as your journey grows, you begin to accept yourself for who you are in the eyes of our Lord. God wants us to love him as much as he loves us. He wants us to trust him, walk with him, acknowledge him before our mediocre world.. I will, are you with me?

XOXO, Madi