I try to be honest with myself when I write my texts although it is not at all obvious. Sometimes it’s not easy to tell if you’re actually writing sincerely or you have any hidden intentions. Maybe I want someone to regret me? Who knows? Maybe this is the way I want to get attention? However, one thing is certain in my life that I felt more often different deficiencies than the excess. Maybe it’s a matter of times, family situation and maybe my psyche. I’m not a good psychologist for myself. I like to analyze but I think that we all lie at least from time to time, because the whole truth can sometimes be very difficult to bear. So unfortunately I am a liar too although I really don’t want to be. I am grateful that you treat me like a good friend and write to me honestly. It helps me. I do not want to base my entire writing on sadness, pain, depression or lack. I have to think about how to balance the topics but first I have to take care of the internal balance.
I can not express it better but I like your song. I love roughness, honesty, searching for the truth about this world, about people, about feelings :)
A lot of hugs from M.