
I told myself I would start writing more because it would be good for my soul.
I think that this is going to be a messy process, but nonetheless it is what it is. At the very least I will try, and that makes me apart of the minority of individuals who do what actually pulls at their heartstrings. So consider my page a free inside look into my being; as much as the internet will allow you to get to know me, that is.
I think I have spent quite some time in solitude, too much time if you ask me. Not that I wasn’t surrounded by others, it wasn’t in a physical sense. No, its just been lonely because I wasn’t fulfilling who I was to my highest potential. And I guess I’m still not doing that but we all have to start somewhere. It’s certainly a weird realization when you take a step back and look at all the excuses you’ve made for yourself in the past years. “ I wasn’t good enough,” “They are better than me,” “Their way seems professional and correct.” Lies and insecurities I have been feeding my thoughts and heart that have kept me from pursuing the things I have honestly cared about. But this stops today. And I think sharing such vulnerabilities will aid in my self-growth and empowerment because I’m allowing myself to not be perfect.
The thing is, you don’t have to be the best person in the entire universe to be valid. Let that sink in. You are not the best at “X” and chances are you won’t be. But that does not mean that your unique flavor of performing the act of “X” should just be left alone because someone will come along and do it better than you. Your lived experience is completely different from ANYONE, which I think is hella empowering in itself.
I don’t know the route I want to take with my writing yet, probably something close to some sort of self-help that may or may not impact anyone who decides to read my stuff. This might honestly be better suited in a blog but who cares. Mostly this is self-help for me because it’s a vital thing for my heart to find comfort in performing the physical exercise of written thought. I don’t want to edit any of my stuff either, or at the very least I want to make sure that I’m keeping the indecisiveness to a minimum. The way I choose to freely word-vomit (high-five if you got that reference) will just have to be good enough for you to read. Because I’m good enough. And it’s about damn time I realized it.
So hi, this is me! I’m 22 and I’m currently traveling the world. I’m in Budapest, Hungary at the moment which is pretty rad as I’m sure you can imagine. I’ve got a thing for surrealist art and I spend a good chunk of my time listening to music. I live in a world where people can live in peace with one another and refuse to accept that war is a way to solve anything. I just graduated from university and got my B.S. (ironically) in Political Science. Next autumn I am planning on moving to Vienna and starting my Masters degree in philosophy. I’m especially interested in political philosophy and find it sad that no one actually seems to think about the “why” behind our socioeconomic systems. I also think about death and dying a lot and how people try not to think about it. It doesn’t get me down, though. I’m definitely a really lively person and I overthink literally everything. I have anxiety and panic attacks creep up on me randomly. I’m not sure what my triggers are yet but I’m learning. My biggest goal in life is to become self-sufficient and have my own farm where I can adopt all the cats and goats. I’m on the path to becoming more of a minimalist and I get sad about society on the daily. I’m bilingual in German and English and was born and raised in Austria. That’s the country in Europe by the way, not the continent.
There ya have it, a little piece of me. You’ve basically just opened the door to find another closed door. If you’ve made it this far, thank you. You have energetically made my day. Stay tuned for more pieces on subjects such as life and how it’s really strange and fucked and messy but it’s not so bad and we can find ways to deeply satisfy our souls aside from the constant existential crises.
A self-help blog for myself and anyone else that happens to stumble upon it.
Peace & so much love,
Mags
