Alex
Alex
Nov 3 · 2 min read

I CAUGHT A THOUGHT

I got this title from one of my favourite speakers and it immediately spoke to me as I am a person who continually receives thoughts. The idea of how one attains a thought is not complex, as we constantly receive ideas from our subconscious mind and environment.

Some ideas are generated way early in our lives, but they only fully manifest when we are fully grown up. Some thoughts are great, others not so good although some people try to live and walk as if they have it all figured out. Unbeknownst to them, a thought shared alleviates pain, motivates and benefits another person.

One of the thoughts that I noticed had taken precedence in my life was the concept of if I was ever enough. I feel that this idea was instilled in me when I was young. A lot of incidents in my childhood propagated such an idea. The pressure to measure up and undue comparison are some of the reasons. I mean I love myself, my family, friends but somehow, I caught such a negative vibe. This idea really manifested in my twenties making me question my choices and beliefs. It was a feeling that made me believe I was a mediocre student. A thought that made me hate life itself, prevented me from seeing the goodness of life. Time and again I questioned myself if I was enough for my family and friends and always, I felt short. My self-confidence was greatly affected and countless times I found myself in episodes of depression. Was I ever enough, what was the purpose of my existence?

That’s the power of a thought. Imagine if a person was to generate a good one. I bet it would definitely help you manoeuvre the hardest patches of life.

How then do we detoxify the negative ideas that we have generated along life?? I remember during my time no matter how much good advice people would give me; it was a total loss. The most important thing for one to live their best life is to desire to be well. Unless you want it for yourself its really hard for someone to want it for you. Another important thing is to open up and live it. One thing I would usually do was pretend as if I was well, I really didn’t say much, how what people did or said affected me. This led to a bottling of emotions, anger being the most common one. It felt as if all my life I was taken for granted. Another way I dealt with negative thoughts and emotion was to find someone to talk to. I’m not really into talking to people as humans can sometimes disappoint. However, on this one instance notable improvements were made. Finding a hobby to destress you also helps, for example, I write till I feel I have released all the negative emotion. There is a lot of advice that one can give but all I can say is desire to be well plus things don’t change overnight. The journey of a thousand mile start with a single step.

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