April ( Sorting )​

I want to lay on a couch and tell you everything that is going through my head right now. But there is no couch but there is a you.

I feel like a failure and a child all at the same time.

Everything feels out of control.

LOL, Can we go for a walk.. LOL I’ll tell you the whole story… I’ll explain everything in my head.

There are too many pieces everywhere too many possibilities and not many realities .

Maybe I talk your ear off, I curl up like a puppy at the sound of your voice. It’s safe, its even safe from my own thoughts and failures. I feel safe and stronger.

And still it’s just a piece.

I wanted to put it all in words… but I didn’t want to fill up your inbox, but maybe I will be up all night writing..