God bless this soul generously ,it’s a gift inside her gift that is flowing through her to hold this paradox and nurture it consistently.
I was in a space similar to this ,nurturing a soul for half a decade,which consisted of two nd a half years before my rebirth and the rest after a life affirming experience for me ,i did struggle a lot ,i was in a beautiful acceptance of it all ,visits to therapist,sitting beside in stoic silence for days ,and then days of violent verbal lashing out ,as i would withdraw when i witnessed manipulation,selfishness,and struggled to completely call it quits ,as i was anchoring it all deeply ,and then life ,our “universe” pressed the pause button for me,and i allowed it all to slip ,as my gift whispered, ‘here’s a reward for honoring me so deeply. In my center is your new gift. Let it arrive into your heart now.’ :)