Die Alone..

I often wonder if i want to die alone or die with my family surrounding me. Would i want to see there faces and feel that deep deep pain of leaving them in this world and missing being there with them ? Or would i rather just want to die suddenly not knowing how and when. This thought of death really facinates me ..

It kind of provokes so many thoughts of how i really want to be at present. I really want to be genuinely peaceful at heart when i leave this world — i dont want to be thinking about what could have happened or what i could have achieved. I want to be genuinely nice to people and make strong bonds. I want to help the community and crib less. I dont crave to be rich and famous and i dont want to make enemies. Life is literally short to keep grudges.

I guess for this new year resolution i want to be happy .. inside -out. I want to spread happiness and i do to not be stressed about small small things that wouldnt even matter to me when i am leaving this world. I want to spend time with animals, travel, learn languages,paint,laugh — really laugh — with my heart.

Eventually i will die .. be it alone or with my family surrounding me — i want to die happy and content.