Please don’t come back

Please don’t come back.
I know I think of you pretty much every day, so I could tell you how fucked up life is or that I just saw this really cute guy, but I’ve made my peace with just being quiet about it.
I know I pick up the phone sometimes & dial your number or even write you a text knowing I’ll never have the courage to send it, but it’s good to just know that you’re doing fine.
I know you’ve got new friends and a new life but I like to wonder if you even want to know how I am or how I’m doing?
I know we had our misunderstandings but how could it be so easy for you to move on and why am I still stuck wondering whether I even knew the real you or that was the real you and you changed? What happened?
I know you once promised to always be there and wipe my tears if need be but times change and now I cry, reason being you.
So dear best friend please don’t come back, I’ve made my peace with being miserable :)
