There isn’t much to say about today except that it’s been quiet. We put in a long night last night after our discussion with the doctor. Bottom line is Mom’s in good spirits but tired.
I’m feeling ambivalent about a lot of things right now. I’m not ready to lose my Mom. I welcome more help but I hate the reason for it.
The doctor told Mom that she wasn’t going to get any better and she should expect to get worse. Flat out, that’s what he said. Well, there you have it. He didn’t say how long he thought Mom had or what he thought would happen in the end, but his meaning was clear. Even if we call it “old age,” Mom’s gonna die soon. Wow. I can’t believe I just wrote that!
So I need to get busy in so many ways. I need to get this house cleaned, sorted, and packed up because I can’t stay here after Mom’s gone. I simply can’t afford it. I’ve got to drum up more business so that I won’t have to worry about moving expenses and being on my own again. I should probably be making phone calls and looking at apartments. I know I should be cleaning my room! But the most important thing I can do right now, and really the only thing I have time for, is to take care of Mom. It’s all I want to do; it’s honestly all I can find time to do, besides work.
Speaking of which, it’s time to get back to business. If you are writing or you know a writer, remember me — the fabulous copy editor! And in the meantime, I’ll go back to editing. Mom will be looking for dinner soon. My free time is running out.
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To be continued…