So I made an appointment with the doctor about a month ago to discuss what she called “WT” wellness thinking aka weight training.

At a glance I seem like your typical overweight person. I’m sure people make assumptions like she must be so sad, or insecure and blah blah blah. But that is not the case here. Simply put I love to eat, always have. Thus I carried bad eating habits from childhood well into adulthood which leads to me to where I am now; really overweight. I’ve done my share of yo-yo dieting and crazy exercise schedules, all of which failed mainly because I focused too much on results. However, I’m slowly learning that there is no quick fix to changing your body. Weight loss isn’t about results, it’s about changing your mind. It is focusing on how you feel rather than numbers.

At the appointment the doctor gave me a list of foods to eat and a list of foods to stay away from. So for the first month all I had to do was follow the list. Seems simple enough right? Not! It’s really freaking hard.

Instead of freaking out and setting myself up for failure I decided to buckle down. I told myself to just take it one day at a time, hour by hour, minute by minute and not look so far ahead.

So today starts my journey to a healthier, happier me. Don’t get me wrong I love myself (probably a little too much sometimes) so that isn’t the problem. However, part of loving someone is being honest with them and telling them the hard truths. Even if that’s myself.

Here it is some radical honesty:

I want to live a long time.

I want to travel and not worry about getting tired.

I want to run places and feel fine after

I want to walk up stairs and not feel winded.

I want to run a marathon.

I want to be a better me.

So, here we go.

Originally published at on May 17, 2017.

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