The downside of too much free time
Taking time off work or spending some time in your isolated bubble after high school is awesome you can figure out what to do with your life and where to go next. You can reflect on stuff that has been going on and spend some time alone but there are some downsides of having to much leisure time. I’m not talking about feeling lonely or not enough activities to do, you can feel lonely while being busy and there is always something to do somewhere, no, my problem is the incredible information overload vacuum that’s been building in my head. Being the only one in my family/friend group to just work a part time job that doesn’t require any thinking and not studying puts me in a position where I have a lot of free time and a lot of brain power to use. So I’ve been reading. A lot. I tried to challenge myself a little and read one book per week which has been working (more or less) but put me in a position where my head is bursting with ingenious ideas, new realizations and topics that want to be discussed. And no outlet. When I meet with my friends or family I can not stop talking for the first hour, because there is just such a huge amount of information I need to share. But since they have their own stuff going on and there are other things to talk about but this book and that professor I just discovered I needed another outlet. And finally I could get my ass up and start writing which I really enjoy — but being a perfectionist (of some kind) — never quite worked because I deleted everything I wrote, thinking the next piece was going to be better. Due to the information overload in my head and me being constantly hyped (COFFEE) I just have to get over myself and write and post and write and post. So this is the first post, hopefully they will get better.
