WHY PHOTONS DONT EXIST

Photons dont exist because they are a contradiction of particle and wave. A wave is by definition a disturbance in a medium, which is made of particles, and is not a projectile like particle. A sound wave is not an air particle which moves at the speed of sound and waves as it does so. And if a radio wave was a particle, it would mean that a radio photon can be miles long, and be way bigger than Godzilla. I call it Photonzilla. And its just as real as Godzilla.
 
The other reason is that they dont have amplitude. Any wave by defintion has an amplitude, which is the distance between the peaks and troughs. And its energy is proprtional with its amplitude. So if a photon doesnt have amplitude, its not a particle-wave, its just a particle-line. In quantum the amplitude of a photon is given by the number of photons. So a photon somehow is made of many photons, which give the photon its amplitude.
 Makes sense ?