I’m in the very same place, Know Thyself.

I've flirted more than once with Survival. My solution was to quickly make my own way.

I fear handouts. There is something magical that happens when we have to pull ourselves up “by our bootstraps.” The self esteem and belief change us for the better. Give us the confidence to progress, regardless the challenge before us.

So yeah. Its an unknown. But one worth exploring.