i. Typhoon.
I always think simply about life. If it is raining then i will just run as fast as i can. If i get a D in a test then i will just think that it is not my luck. Isn’t life exist to provide you an enjoyment of it so you won’t waste even a second before life takes you back? I express my grattitude towards the Creator by enjoying my life. But she thought that i was living recklessly. She thought that i was wasting my time.
“You need to think about your future sometimes.” She said, once a day when it was too cloudy outside that we ended up talking longer about stuffs in my living room. Everytime we were talking, she always had time to lectured me. It is like she claimed that there is 100% possibility that i will ruin my own life later. I did not know whether she was worried about me or my life.
“And you. You need to stop thinking about your future sometimes. Live now.”
But she laughed over my answer. I munched over my cheetos to hid my embarassment. Did i said something stupid? Well, i might not be the brightest kid in the class but shouldn’t she take my answer as a consideration when i always listen to hers? She never listen to mine like, ever.
“I Live Now Stupid. Do you think life is just some exact moment where everything happen only once and that is all? What are you doing now also has a large effect to what are going to happen later. I live now, therefore i think about my future.”
“Then, does a minute of your time that is spent to talk to me will also has a large effect to yourself later?”
She shrugged. “Maybe? I got to go, it’s raining.”
It was raining hard outside and i chuckled over her answer. I chuckled because when she wasn’t sure about the effect of my existence in her life i am always sure about the opposite. They say, the smallest step one takes in someone life can change the course of said life immensely. She did. She didn’t know but i studied harder. She dreamt about a college far away from this town and i did not even know the reason why she wanted to leave this town so bad even when we both agreed that our town has the kindest people. But despite of not knowing the reason i still studied hard so i wasn’t left behind. And they say, something as small as the flutter of a butterfly’s wing can ultimately cause a typhoon halfway around the world. And i didn’t understand metaphor or allegory or whatever it’s called but hell, she did. She did bring the biggest typhoon ever since day one she stepped into my life.
And suddenly, i am worried about her coming home without an umbrella.
