Spoonie Secrets: Issue #8

A safe space for people with chronic illness where they can share deepest and darkest secrets anonymously.

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1. Sometimes, I let myself enjoy my bad days and give myself permission to go ahead and enjoy being fully lazy since I’m bed-ridden those days anyway. Somehow, I still manage to feel ashamed about it afterwards.

2. Sometimes I wish I was diagnosed with something life threatening so people would take it seriously.

3. Guilt for praying every night that I won’t wake up in the morning

4. I don’t know if I would be with my husband if I didn’t have my chronic illness. I feel that we have grown apart (because of my illness, which he struggles with because of how it’s affected my/his life). However, I rely on him now too much to leave.

5. I sometimes, late at night, wish that I would have a more serious episode of my condition cause then maybe the doctors would actually find something for once.

6. I used to be a supportive person and now I am angry and resentful of other peoples’ successes.

7. Someone who didn’t know about my conditions told me that people with chronic illnesses shouldn’t work because they rob healthy people of jobs that they can do better. I think that it’s sad but true and I’m scared to start working.

Your Turn

Which confession resonates with you the most?

Do you have a chronic illness? What is your deepest secret? If you’re ready to share, send it (anonymously) here.

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