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Trigger Warning: The last 3 entries (numbers 6–8) talk about suicide.

1. I’m afraid to travel because I’ve gotten a flare-up and been in bed on vacation. I’m concerned I will get stuck someplace and be unable to fly home.

2. When I have a flare-up I get extremely anxious and panicky for days — I become frightened that I will have to retire early, will have no future and will be stuck at home for the rest of my life.

3. I can’t feel emotions anymore. I don’t really know if I still love my husband anymore. But I have no job due to my chronic illness, am totally financially depended on him and I have nowhere to go. …


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1. I’m young, I thought I had a long life ahead for me, but now I’m not so sure…

2. It’s weird, on one hand, I want to live my life and accomplish things. But on the other hand, I just want to give up and die. I’m so tired of being tired.

3. I fear that I’ll never be able to accomplish my ambitions.

4. I’ve stopped telling my parents and doctor everything. I feel as if I have no freedom and privacy. I don’t take my medicine and I’ve stopped telling them my symptoms. If anyone asks I just say I’m fine. I’m so fed up! …


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1. I live in fear of my many check-ups. Am I healing as I should be? Will something new be found? Will I need a new surgery? Will they suggest more medication? How do I share the news with my friends and family?

2. I had a boyfriend for around 2 months, I didn’t tell him about my chronic illnesses until after we broke up.. now he’s like my best friend and we’re really close. …


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Trigger Warning: sexual assault, suicidal thoughts

1. I constantly tell people I’m better than I actually am, especially at work and to my parents. I fear that one day I will get worse and my lies will be obvious. I’ve always been the strong and independent one and fear that I’m slowly losing those qualities. I will put myself through hell to keep working full-time and being as independent as possible for as long as I can. I don't want to have to quit and move home because I’m too sick to take care of myself anymore. …


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1. I swear I see them looking. Yes I know my hand is crippled disfigured ball of oddity. Mind your business- when you stare I feel like sh*t.

2. My friends are booking their holidays and I am pleased to hear about them. But I can’t help feeling envious and I hate myself for it. Others tell us to take a break “You deserve it” — but they don’t understand how hard it is to plan with a changing condition and that living on state benefits we just don’t have the money. …


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1. I sometimes miss having a broken pelvis because at least then people believed my pain and I had access to meds to make it better.

2. I can’t stand myself. I feel like I’m nothing more than the sum of my symptoms, and they’re torture.

3. How is anyone supposed to believe me when I have a hard time believing I really feel as awful as I do.

4. I can’t stand the bitterness that comes with being robbed day by day of what life could be. …


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1. My husband has gone from being my lover to my caregiver — our relationship has slowly but surely changed and it feels like there is no way back. I just feel so sad.

2. I sometimes wish my husband had never met me, so he could be with someone who doesn’t hold him back & who he doesn’t have to care for 24/7.

3. I’m always worried that people will think I am just fat and lazy when in truth I am fat and in pain all the time. It hurts so much to do things that others take for granted. I need so much help it makes me feel so guilty. I know I am not worth all the trouble I put others through just to help me get through the day. …


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1. Sometimes, I let myself enjoy my bad days and give myself permission to go ahead and enjoy being fully lazy since I’m bed-ridden those days anyway. Somehow, I still manage to feel ashamed about it afterwards.

2. Sometimes I wish I was diagnosed with something life threatening so people would take it seriously.

3. Guilt for praying every night that I won’t wake up in the morning

4. I don’t know if I would be with my husband if I didn’t have my chronic illness. I feel that we have grown apart (because of my illness, which he struggles with because of how it’s affected my/his life). …


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1. Ever since I refused to be the me I’ve been my whole life I am lost and lonely and desperate. I am jealous of everything and everyone. People can’t stand being around me for long from my negative vibe, depressed mood, and the uncomfortable feelings from my anxieties.

2. Over summer, I quit my job to go back to school. I was so excited! My husband and I were now living on just his income. But eight weeks before graduating with my associates degree, I had to drop the classes; I was falling behind due to a flare the put me in the hospital. I now feel like a financial burden to my husband because we can’t get that money back. …


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Trigger Warning: suicidal thoughts

1. I’m afraid that I’m not really chronically ill, that I’m really just fat.

2. I get so tired of having fatigue and often wonder how that will affect my future. I’m only 18 but I’m scared that I will never find love and get married due to my illness. Also that it will get in the way of me being able to have a steady career for myself and my family.

3. With the way people talk about chronic illness now, especially on social media, sometimes I feel inadequate for “just” having fibromyalgia instead of a rarer condition or combination. …

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Mary Gutierrez

I help women with chronic illness to shine and thrive. https://healthyeatingexperts.com

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