So sorry for you loss. I too lost a child. My boy was shot to death and it was so shocking and sorrowful, it shocked my system into A Fib and I went on for 4 years in and out of the hospital. I have some true friends that have stood by me. I have a few that decided I wasn’t worth the effort and they shunned me. I have never been treated like that in my life, so I didn’t handle it well and had a bad breakdown. I came out of that and made up my mind that I have to be careful about who I let in. I have never been like that, being a very happy, outgoing person all my life. There are so many stages, it never seems to stop. But, I do think I am stronger this year #5.