My wish for you is the relief that sleep is supposed to offer, and I encourage you to expand your exploration of making it possible. I am a lover of sleep — and of dreams. A close friend is a neuroscientist who studies the act of dreaming and I agree that there is so much yet to discover about this realm of consciousness. Do you have/use the Sleep Cycle app? Although I dislike sleeping with electronics, I love having each night of sleep be a personal self-science experiment.