I’m dumbfounded as to how much this piece spoke to me in every way. I’m not only prone to codependency and anxious attachment, but also a HSP. I’ve been lost in love and infatuation for the past several months, I idealized, I broke time and time again, I clinged hard, days upon days were lost worrying and thinking and fantasizing, I go to the point of feeling legitimately sick if I know she’s in pain and I can’t help imediately (even if there’s nothing that can be done). It’s not easy for me to fall in love, I think this is the second or third time in my life I fell so hard, and everytime it’s more incredibly painful than anything else, of course minus the time where all is fun and games. I used to think maybe I’m just emotionally broke…too broke for relationships, for anyone to be with me. That I might just be submissive, their pleasure being the source of mine. You’ve made me realize it’s actually much more than that, that it goes way deeper. I have a lot to work, a lot to fix, I spend so much time trying to be the best of myself for others that I just lose myself in the process…and it hurts so much.