I feel like this season i am closing more doors than opening them because of a possibility that supposedly shut down long before it crawled to my heart. Now, i am honestly saying that i can’t let go of this without Your help. I don’t know what if it’s for me that’s why i am asking You to give clarity over this situation as i am suffering for months. I know it seems petty for some but it has been bugging me since it started and Lord i wanted to get with the bottom of this. I promised my self to just enjoy the moment but it seems unlikely without developing deeper emotions towards this. So Lord, i am giving it all to You since i am this weak, You know me more than myself.