Purpose.

Lately I have been struggling so much with who I am. I know my name, I know what I physically look like, and I know what I am doing right now. I know my purpose in life.

But I don’t follow it. I fight the purpose. I give it flack, complain, and devise plans that appear more interesting and fulfilling. But they aren’t. The purpose of me being here on this Earth is to show the glory of God. Plain and simple. My job is to take the thing that is hanging from that necklace and put it in every last nook and cranny on planet Earth. The guy behind that necklace is the subject, and Matt Larsen is the predicate.

God loves Matt.

God saved Matt.

God created Matt.

God sent Matt.

God sent Matt to relay these simple sentences to every person on Earth, so that they would have a chance to place themselves as the predicate in each one of those sentences. So how do I do this? How is it that I communicate this indescribable God? The answer is not the same person to person, and here’s why:

We do not dare to classify or compare ourselves with some who commend themselves. When they measure themselves by themselves and compare themselves with themselves, they are not wise. We, however, will not boast beyond proper limits, but will confine our boasting to the sphere of service God himself has assigned to us, a sphere that also includes you. 2 Cor. 10:13

This is a passage that was brought to my attention while listening to “The Grace Zone is a World of Blessing,” a message by Brian Houston, the senior pastor of Hillsong Church. He says that in this grace zone — or this sphere as Paul calls it — whether you are a pastor, an accountant, a pro athlete, or whatever, you can take the situation that God has placed you in and use your spiritual gifts given to you BY God to spread the Word. He keeps hitting this point:

If you SEEK God’s voice and live within this sphere that He has appointed you, it is a world of inclusion and never-ceasing blessing. When you live in this sphere, it changes your attitude, perspective, and helps you embrace God’s plan for your life. It helps you see every situation as an opportunity to spread the kingdom. And when you thrive within this sphere, people take notice. This last Tuesday in class, my friend Bethany pointed out that I have been quite happy recently. And before I had a chance to respond, my friend Mason immediately said, “It’s because of the Holy Spirit.” YES. Yes it is.

You see, I have been striving to live more in this sphere lately without even realizing it. This happiness that Bethany had noticed was not a facade, and it was not of this world. As Mason pointed out, it was from the Holy Spirit. As far as I can tell, it was pure JOY. That day she noticed it, I was exhausted from 5 hours of sleep, hadn’t eaten breakfast, and hadn’t showered in at least a day. It’s safe to say I had no part in my own attitude that day. God has been doing work everywhere in my life since the day I was born, but the moment that I realized this, I moved miles closer to the center of my grace zone. By no means have I figured out this “Grace Zone,” but I am SURE that I have never been closer to the center of it in my entire life.

“You want to know whether or not you’re living in God’s grace? Are people drawn to what God has called you to do? Are people drawn into your circle?” -Brian Houston

While having people drawn to me is great, and time with friends is necessary to grow as a person, what other purpose could God have other than bringing them to me and allowing me to display Him? I don’t want people to be drawn to me because I’m a cool kid. I don’t even want people to be drawn to me because I’m a kind person. I want people to be drawn to me because I’m living in God’s grace, and only then can I show them the cross on the end of that necklace, only then can I reunite them with their creator. I’m done living the life that I control. I’m done showing the world how great I am. I’m gonna go show the world the great I AM.