I enjoy discovering and trying new things. Curiosity is one of my most notable character traits.
My motive for trying DMT (N,N-Dimethyltryptamine) was no different: I was curious. I’d read quite a few trip reports, and was astounded by how bizarre and vivid the descriptions were.
I was well aware that on DMT, I could be faced with anything from a blissful experience of infinity to a plunge into a painfully clear nightmare.
N,N-Dimethyltryptamine (also known as DMT and “the Spirit Molecule”) is a naturally-occurring psychedelic substance. Though its effects are short-lived, they can be powerfully immersive and life-altering.
This story begins at a point in my life when I’d been suffering with symptoms of depression, anxiety and bipolar II for approximately 10 years.
I’d managed to remain relatively high-functioning — at least high-functioning enough to hold down a job, and support myself financially.
However, even though I kept up a social façade, my ongoing internal struggle led me to feel particularly nihilistic. Although I had not attempted suicide, I was self-harming on a regular basis, and had been hospitalized multiple times.
One day about 4 years ago, I had an LSD trip that changed my life. …