Anxiety Attacks

What is a better time to write about anxiety then when you are having an anxiety attack? I take Vyvanse which controls my not actually diagnosed ADHD during the school year. However, it is currently summer so I don’t have much to focus on besides work. However, every day two to three hours into the medicine kicking in I have an anxiety attack. When this happens my brain starts churning out all sorts of ideas and things I should be doing or should try or experiment. Writing on this website was the result of one of my attacks when my brain thought I should write about my ideas and about life. When you are having an anxiety task and you are at work (I work at McDonald’s as mentioned in another post) you start to do everything like you have mild OCD. If you have ever seen a Wes Anderson movie when one of his characters is building something or making an “inventory” this is how I act when doing a task. So all your fries will be placing the same way and all the food in your bag will be placed properly. These attacks last about 15–20 minutes but can be stopped if I just take 10 deep breaths and relax because preparing McDonald’s fries isn’t that life changing. That being said when I am not at work and say I am at school walking to class and listening to music. The certain song I am listening to will affect my mood, if it is an old song from my childhood, I will reminisce about the time when I first heard that song and go back to that time in my life and think about the people there in the memory. Then I will want to reach out to those people and see how they are doing even if I haven’t talked to them in 10–15 years. These thoughts would never have occurred if I didn’t have an attack. I have learn to cope with the attacks and they are never truly scary but having one as I was writing this I am trying to type fast like I am on a time limit when I am not. Tip for vyvanse users wait till after you have an attack to have your morning coffee or else you will be shaking and want to do things at light speed.

Thanks for reading this was probably all over the place and has grammar issues again but I don’t care :)

-Max