Oh my. That is a lot of uncomfortable feelings. Kirtan was a great idea! You are brave to begin a new job (i think i have few real life friends because of my OR mouth, lol) and I would suspect some unsettling, while you gain your footing. (when I was young, I would ‘catastrophize”, lump everything wrong on my head and not be able to move under the weight of it. So not helpful but it happened easily and quickly. “There’s this, and this, and this, and…”) It’s great you had a fabulous beach week with your family. And re-entry sucks. And IT people need a course in compassion, lol. I wish you were my neighbor, and not this lunatic that moved in. Namaste.