Very well written. Yes, fat-shaming exists. Yes, there exists a thin-cult. True. We all hurt (yes I am fat too). We all want love, to give and to receive. Been alone all my life, no matter what I did right work-related, it did not bring someone to love me, the real me. And so, I did what a lot of us do, sometimes, I just gave up on myself, pretended that I was no good for love, or deep friendships… a group of close friends got together and they raised the money for my bariatric surgery, and I could not believe their selflessness at doing so as none of them had any “extra” cash to just give out like that. Of course, living in a third world country, it was much less costly than that mentioned in your piece. Good surgery, great six months, no energy loss, good weight loss and for once, the doctor tells me I cannot lose weight that quickly! That was fun! But at the 7th month, I crashed because of vitamin loss, no energy, one day I just could not get up and I did not know why. Of course, I had not been given enough information regarding the vitamin boost I was to take…

But something was being processed inside…. no matter how good it was on the outside, my “mind” was sabotaging me…. it has taken me a long time to realise and accept that my greatest enemy is within… It is my own mind that has to change. I have lost weight, gained a lot it back until that part of my that I had forgotten or buried, woke up again and I realised I was alive, I did want to love and be loved but well all have to get ourselves to a good place with ourselves before we are able to do this…. even if we were thin, the process is the same. So, there, my condition is that I must do what I can to be better for myself…. and then perhaps I will have something positive to share with someone who may be looking for that partner to love. And yes, I have lost the kilos I had regained, but every day is a struggle I must face. I will forever have to be careful of what I can eat to contribute to my well being…. but it is a small price to pay for my inner peace. Just saying…