How to get the courage to stop self abusing


“I drive back criticism, who is society to criticize me? Society didn’t do a goddamn thing to help protect and save me as a child, in fact, everybody kind of colluded with my abusers to one degree or another … So I thought, who the hell is society to morally criticize me, because I sure as hell have never backed down from the opportunity to help somebody who claims historical victimhood and abuse.

“So, who the hell is society, this bullshit construct that doesn't do a god damn thing to help children except pat itself on the back about how noble it is when it comes to protecting the innocent, who the fuck is society to criticize me? Fuck them. Nobody stood up for me when I was a kid, nobody gets to criticize me as an adult. I won’t take it. I won’t take a syllable of it. Until people stand up for children who are being abused, I wont take a shred of fundamental moral criticism. And so when i get self-attacky, I know that it’s coming from outside myself, and I know that it’s projected guilt of a society that does fuck-all to help children being abused. Does fuck-all to help children being abused. And then that same society has the gall to criticize those who do, that is just projected guilt, shame, and self-loathing, AND I WONT TAKE A SHRED OF IT. I won’t take an atom of it.

“I push back the guilt of the people who don’t act. I push back the guilt of the people who enable the abusers. I push back the guilt of the people who don’t pick up the fucking phone. I push back the guilt of the people who don’t interfere when they see children being yelled at in malls, put down, humiliated, aggressed against — I wont take an atom of it. The projected self-loathing of a cowardly world that does nothing to protect children, is not something I’m going to own. People have to do a hell of a lot of standing up for children and the adult victims of abuse before they get to criticize me. But the people who haven’t, can take a flying fuck off a short pier, because I don’t listen to that shit at all. They can scream and piss into the wind if they want, but until society starts standing up for the truly helpless and victimized in this world, it better shut the fuck up about lecturing the people who do.”

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