After a childhood of being too nervous to ask permission to leave the classroom, I honed the ability to regularly go six to seven hours without needing to use the bathroom. It may be the most useful skill a future trans person can develop in grade school. …

About 2 weeks ago, I wrote a post about being 3 days from starting a testosterone treatment as part of my transition to a non-binary gender. Due to general screw-ups by me, my doctor, and my pharmacies, I started T today instead. …

Have you ever wondered what happens when you apply to jobs as a graduating computer science major who has a non-binary gender and is starting physical transition?

Me, too. I have no idea what is going to happen to me.

How it all started

I don’t know what the earliest signs of my non-girlhood…

I woke up tangled in David’s arms, limbs numb from blood loss, feet cold from blankets in disarray between David and his cat stealing them from me. Around 9 AM, I heard my phone buzz with a call.

“Who’s calling me?” I whined, and didn’t move, because the phone was…

I came straight out of the brutal February of 2015 in upstate New York on the coast of Cayuga Lake, but I never felt colder than that night in Cherry Hill, New Jersey, walking around piles of day-old snow, its resultant ice, and neon orange cones and signs to block…

I recently had to buy myself some more toothpaste and walked into the toothpaste aisle of the drugstore, because toothpaste takes up so much space to display that an entire aisle is devoted to it alone: not “tooth care products”, with toothbrushes and mouthwashes and flosses all joining it like…

I befriended Rhea back in kindergarten because I couldn’t tell what she was feeling. I must have worried she might be sad that no one was playing with her, the awkward, scrawny girl with short hair and bland clothes. Soon, I found I liked to hang out with her because…