Arrr grr blur..... That’s how my college life began.
The so called history which I wanted to stay away from, 11 and 12th felt so lonely.
Yet, orientation day had its real enthusiasm. Felt like was reaching to some kind of sisterhood.
For real, Nobody called my cellphone just to meet and spend some quality time with me. That’s the first time you called.... Unexpected overwhelm! I came running. Well, I never knew you would hold an ice cream for me and god hate the gravity, it fell down from my hands, that’s when I knew you were so close to my sisterhood.
The lovely early morning texts I got and I woke up to that, rather than waking up to prayers in my head. I never would have guessed I would get them everyday. Like Oh my god what did I do to deserve so much love? 😂 okay not to mention too much of texting world but I liked it!
In reality, I sort of became jawstruck, (may be because of my tears of joy, cuz I was not scared to be lonely?)
Ermm.. Lonely is not a good term!
I was on cloud 99
Everyday seemed like it’s my day with everyone I adore
Surprisingly, I kind of had a gang... Squad whatever you call it.
Little did I know being superficial would last things forever....... Forever whatever?!
Instead, I went overboard for that really didn’t matter
I have been a horrible friend and a good friend. Delving deep into this would make no sense. I wish I could time travel and get thrust into the past and change em. Ending with making no sense again. Iam not guilty, it’s not a big mistake either.
Now what’s at stake even if I do something.
Being treated like a small swollen human being. Getting past your insecurities. Not knowing who to trust. Friends who have your back and ones who don’t. Well that’s when I realized I have bigger dreams and ambitions in life. Some of us work for living unlike the grumpy rich kids.
And if you gotta achieve something great, you gotta be a loner. I feel this is more important.. I feel like opposing things everytime some one says that’s out of my league of imaginations. I sort of like to have lot of my own opinions and had it been encouraged, I would be something else right now. Something that tells me who I wanna be?
Everyone has some kind of darkness in them. I have lot of em surprisingly. Okay here it goes by calling myself killer frost. Hoping y’all get the reference 😂 my friends called me ICY!
If you talk about flash non stop. You and I are best friends forever, I don’t believe in that kind of cheesy and white lies of lines told by lot of people to me. I have an attitude of sugar rush but you might as well wanna know my dark side as I said earlier.... Not really!
Now iam just a living dead. All my feelings that felt real is all just dead.
Life teaches you so many lessons. This is one phase! Let it live. Let it unveil something good as time pass by. Bad days are not for eternity. You don’t have to try to be a dazzled human. You’re a natural already. You’re already there. Like the whole world says loving what you do makes you happy. Don’t let anyone put you down......Just do your thang gal!
This is quite personal. Dang it!
Thank you!
