When I first studied Architecture, I’ve never thought myself to become a teacher in my university. This is something that I feel so grateful about, because I can always learn about something that I like; architecture and landscape design. And I can share my ability and knowledge about them to my students as well.

I know this is just a beginning of my journey to explore many things, especially ones that are related to my topic of interest-the landscape design-and of course, how to teach my students well. The fist time I taught my student, I felt nervous, because I think that I am not good enough to deliver the materials. I started to open my notes from 10 years ago when I was a student, and learn anything that I’ve ever taught about it. Maybe just because I need to refresh my memory about what I have learnt about during my collage days, but maybe I just felt nervous and excited at the same time. I made a lot of jokes with my students, because I think that they might get stress, but at the same time, I felt like I can not deliver the materials so well. Truthfully, I always look at my senior lecturers giving their lectures to the students, maybe that is why I felt inferior. Although my friend said to me that they have much experience in teaching, and do not compare myself with them, I always feel guilty to my kids because my lacking of experience.
I remember when I told my problems to my senior lecturer, he said to me something that I would never forget;

“It is normal for a young teacher like you to be nervous when you give a lecture. Even my self, who has 15 years experience in teaching will nervous every time I give a new topic of lectures. It is true that we do not learn about pedagogy in teaching, but, having enough knowledge in you, will make you more confidence in conducting a lecture”

And after he said that, I told to myself: I can be a good lecturer then, as long as I don’t stop to learn.

That is why I made this blog. I made this, because I need to practice writing. I have to practice writing, because I need a specific score on an English examination. I need a (very) high score on the exam, because I need to get a PhD, a mandatory for a lecturer like me. But, the most important thing about what I do right now, is that I want to be an expert in architecture study, so that I can teach my students well.

I want to be a good lecturer, just like my previous lecturer was. I used to hear him taught his students when I was on the office. I remember the way he told them how to design, conducting an analysis, etc. But right now, I could not hear it anymore, because he has passed away last month.

I can not forget to what he has said to me, and I hope I wouldn’t.

I hope that someday I can inspire my students to love their works, and enjoy their study. I know that studying this kind of field study can be exhausting, especially when you have lots of deadlines. You may lack of sleep, because you need to finish your works, your design. And in morning you have to be looking good in front of your client (in the campus, you have to meet your supervisors instead of clients), because you need to present your design. I know this will make my students go “crazy”, because they have to accomplish the design requirements in a given time. And I still think about how to make my students enjoy this kind of learning process to become credible architect someday.

The only thing I can do right now, is to make sure that I have known all of the materials that students have to learn. I need to get a PhD (somehow, I am sure that it can help my thinking process), thus I can plan and design a good method for me teaching the kids. I need some time, of course, but I need to pass the exam first, so that I can finally begin my study.

I hope so ..