Real Life Happy
Word choice, verb choice
I had to use my third choice
I cant decide whats in my mind at any given time I just rhyme on a dime a snap in a dash my mind’s like lightning Flash
Bash boom bang i can’t get control again
Sometimes my mind thinks of a line but it’ll fly away before i can even say what i mean what i Seen how have i been?
The kind of fine that’s out of line
Out of time
Film strip burning out of existence
Yesterday I danced and today I cried
Not to be this way
Not to see me this way
A broken beauty with more tears and fears than anybody will ever hear
But I never dream never been happy with she with this body
This mind it isn’t mine
This humility labeled fragility
The payments are overdue on my utilities
I got no lights on in these eyes
These lies only held up so much but i cant touch normal anymore
What is this all for?
Will i get any better in this forever?
I tremor and shake and wait until im whole again
That’s a whole other thing
I wanna sing again and feel that happy in my bones but i don’t own that feeling
My mind’s still reeling
And racing and chasing but im finally facing it
I’m saving it
My life my right to be here feel here
Find my real life happy here.