This, then, is what thin people are afraid of: not a changing body, but a subjugation to the thin person they once were — a thin person who passed judgments on fat people, or who let others’ judgments go uninterrogated and uninterrupted. The fear of becoming fat, as Michelle Alison has noted, is a fear of mortality. But the fear of being fat is the fear of joining an underclass that you have so readily dismissed, looked down on, looked past, or found yourself grateful not to be a part of.
…out. I tell him that I’ve only been to emergency care for years now, and I know that’s not helpful. I tell him that I stopped seeing doctors because doctors stopped seeing me. So many wouldn’t touch me, wouldn’t examine me, wouldn’t ask questions, wouldn’t refer to specialists or write prescriptions. Everything, I tell him, led back to the weight loss that years of dieting and disordered eating never delivered.