Nothing is for certain
I hate making plans. Let me correct myself. I like the idea of making plans, but I hate it when the plans don’t work. It stresses me out. I can recount several times when I had an idea and life was like, nope, that is not what’s gonna happen! I never used to understand the saying, tell God your plans and he’ll laugh. I always thought, “Why on earth would He laugh?” But then I got older, and it hit me like a train. I can count on both hands when I planned on something, and then, I blinked, and my life changed.
When I was little, I had my whole life planned; at least I thought I had it planned. I wanted a house with a fence, three children, and a good paying job. My brothers would visit, and I would have dinner parties with my friends. My life was supposed to be put together by the age of 25. My life is not at all like that. Thank goodness! There is nothing wrong with having your dreams come true. I truly hope everyone reaches their star, but I’m not sure I want to reach mine. I’ll tell you why.
Life happens and I’m sick of being disappointed. Sounds sad. Right? You are wrong. Being disappointed teaches me a lesson and points me in a new direction. Life gives everyone roadblocks. That’s what creates character and helps you grow. You can do one of two things. Either take it in stride or give up and run. I can tell you what I used to do and which one I’m doing now.
For most of my life, I would run from problems. Inside, I didn’t feel worthy. I would let my inner demons win, and my life would get redirected to some other road. I have hit quite a few potholes, but I’ve discovered that redirection can lead to some pretty cool stuff. I refuse to run any more.
Nothing is for certain. I don’t know if I will reach my dreams, but that is okay. The ride on my road keeps me living in the present. I want to learn and take it all in. I want to make a difference in this world. I’m up for whatever. I’m just asking that everyone enjoy their journey, and please be an amazing detour for someone who is lost. We need each other.